Swimsuit Season for a Fat Chick
Always makes me nervous. I’m obsessed with swimsuits. Obsessed. With this obsession comes a down fall..
I feel like I can never find the perfect one. That one piece that makes me feel as some sort of invincible mermaid seductress. All these frilly, barely any fabric swimsuits that are incredibly cute that I could never ever feel comfy wearing (it ain’t me, if that’s you, go for it, sister) that could be perfect. But I’m not the size of the model, nor do I desire to be.
I just ordered this piece from ASOS.
And I just canceled. I realized it wouldn’t flatter me the way I wanted it do. I really loved the mesh and cornelli detailing, its incredibly hot. Sexy, even. I could totally be a babe in this swimsuit but… It just would not work out for me, the cut-out sides would unflatter my body in such a way I’d become worrisome and even fucking self conscious about the way I look which not what anything you wear, should ever do to you, y’know? This would not be the swimsuit I would become be the mermaid seductress I’ve dreamed to be . Maybe it’s all in my mind. I’m not one for following any sort of rules on my figure- I wear what I want, when I want, as long as it fits me properly. I guess I’m not a cut out swimsuit type of girl y’all. I could just be being a big baby, and come tomorrow, I’ll regret not snagging this for a mere $59, but what’s a girl to do?
Anyway, I have tried the whole, high -waist brief and bikini top look, and don’t get me wrong, I love a high-waist brief but bikini tops are incredibly annoying to me. I’m like a child, when I’m at the beach (just messin’, I’m a child all the time), bouncin’ about, and the kind of bikini tops (that are in my price range- I’m not about to drop eighty dollars for a well fitting but horrendous top) are just too flimsy and I’m flailing and then my boobs are flying and then the waves hit me and I’ve spent so much more time readjusting my suit then actually enjoying the ocean. I need sustainability in a swimsuit.
So I’ve decided to say, “Fuck it.” This year will be the year I try a one piece.
Items featured: Marc by Marc Jacobs, Moonwalker by BlackMilk, Wildfox Rose Print Swimsuit, American Apparel’s Malibu Swimsuit
And probably more bikini tops and high waisted bottoms. Just in case, y’know? Whatever.